Forgiveness

Forgiving yourself is pretty challenging, after-all, it''s far easier to blame everyone else: he teased me, she pushed in-front of me, they disrespected me.. The list goes on. Instead of asking ourselves Why did that bother me so much?, we deviate our feelings and get angry about whatever it is. 

Remember that time you were waiting to buy that new pair of jeans? And that sneaky woman pushed in front of you. How dare she! How dare she push infront of you! Does this woman not know about how busy your life is? Does she not have manners and respect? Oh the utter disrespect of some people. After you pay for your jeans you walk out the shop and bump into a long-lost friend. The one who used to make you laugh like no one else, but they moved way to America. You two getting chatting and your day goes on. Later you realise that had that women not pushed in-front of you, you would have completely missed her. You feel angry at yourself for not seeing the bigger picture, so to speak. 

Then comes the hardest part. How do we forgive ourselves? You remember that time you were playing in the park, you were 5. There was this big slide there. It had monkey bars, rails, hidding spots and rock climbing. It was your favourite. But everytime you went to go, the big kids would stop you. You could never get past them. After this happening over and over again, you made yourself a promise. You promised yourself that people would always have to treat you with respect. You realised that the reason you were so annonyed about that women pushing in-front was because it made you feel disrespected - something you hadn't dealt with. Now came the hard part, allowing yourself to feel the hurt from the times you were disrespected...