1) Accepting that you are powerless over avoidance (facebook)
After much contemplation, you finally close your browser. You proceed to staring at a piece of paper with the most intimidating phrasing and finally choose a question. Step one is evidently complete, so you can return to Facebook.
2) Believing that books will help you through this process
You surrender your lack of knowledge/insight to the local library. Here, you will find help in your long journey with your essay.
N.B: When you write your essay, only 1 in 10 of these books will actually be useful.
3) Surrender to your avoidance and open a book
After three days of staring at these textbooks laying around you, you finally gain the courage and strength to pick one up. You stare at the contents page blankly. Nothing seems relevant and so you take a break. You continue this process with all your resources, asking yourself "Why did I think this was useful!?!"
4) Realising how you don't understand a bleep about your question
After welcoming the help and knowledge from the books, you realise how little you know. You start to regret not doing the weekly reading and curl into a ball.
5) Admitting your stress to those around you and how you are so screwed.
After opening the books, you admit to yourself how you don't know anything. You panic and message someone/talk to a housemate about how you don't understand anything!!!
6) Forgiving old self for not doing any work and placing your faith in the books
After stressing and doing everything to avoid work (cook, clean, go out, watch t.v., do your hair...) you give in. You face the books again and hope they will help you.
7) Humbly asking the books to help you through the process
We put our faith into the books and hope they will fill in the knowledge gaps.
8) Amending by making a list of things you need to read to
The sun starts to shine as you begin to grasp more your topic. You still feel a bit shaken by it all, but hope that your commitment now will lead you into success.
9) Action - opening a word document and start writing your essay
After the books restoring your faith, you put everything into action. Of course, there are a couple of facebook breaks in between.
10) Reviewing your essay and noting the shortfallings
The wonderful stage of editing.
11) Hope - after re-reading your essay, you hope that you have done all that is within your power to succeed
Here there may be a brief experience of panic and thinking you have taken it from the wrong angle. However, you have faith in your work and ability.
12) You finish your essay and proceed to say 'next time, I'll start earlier!'
Disclaimer: This is based on the Alcoholic Anonymous 12 step program. It is in no shape or form trying to replace or undermine the validity of the 12 step program in addiction recovery.

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