Bad into good

The last three months have been a really difficult part in my recent life. Without going into too much personal details, friendships were changed, I got out of a long-term relationship, grades changed and generally had a lot of 'bad' luck - or, so I thought.

When we are going through life in a different route than the one we anticipated we can become frustrated, sad and angry. It can be upsetting when things don't go to plan: we don't get that dream job, grade or perhaps relationship - to name a few. While you're going through this phase it can feel all bleak and despair. We don't understand why the world is unjust.

Something that made me realise this was when I got out of my relationship. I was upset that I wouldn't be able to do this and that with this person, that I wouldn't be able to call them, I wouldn't be able... It was all about me. I wanted all these things. And it hit me how selfish I was being that I would nearly rather the other person not be so happy so I could have what I wanted. I realised that what I wanted wasn't necessarily the best thing and the importance of letting go.

The beautiful thing about life is that it gives us what we need, not what we want. Sometimes we get so carried away daydreaming that we forget about the realities of the world we live in. Sometimes we have to take a step back, stop and think: why do we really want X? What will we gain? Will it really matter in the grand scheme things?

If it's meant to be it will be. If not, it won't. So when I think back about everything that has changed recently I thank the Universe. I thank it for all the opportunities to grow and evolve and to see beyond the desiring ego. I thank it for all the 'unwanted' change it brought, because through it I have been able to grow and gain a new insight into the world.